Places, Things, and Letting Go

Places, Things, and Letting Go

 

The car that has been my own for 5 years and one of the greatest luxuries of my life.

I’ve taken road trips in that car. Hooked up in that car. Rear-ended people on the freeway in that car.

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Selling it was weirdly emotional. Too emotional. So emotional that I had to stop and ask what the fuck was wrong with me.

I mean, first off, I sold the car to my sister so at least I get visitation rights. It went to a happy home and I feel at peace giving it to her.

And I don’t need a car in Seattle. I don’t really need a car, period, since I plan on traveling around the world.

So why was selling it such a big deal?

 

You may expect this post to be a lecture on materialism, greed, and what’s wrong with society. It’s not.

It’s a lesson on letting go.

And more specifically, moving forward.

 

I was attached to my car for a multitude of reasons.

But what’s really important is why I wanted to sell it in the first place.

Money.

That “evil” thing that you sometimes need in order to make your dreams a reality.

I sold my car because I want money to travel more.

But selling my car quickly became a symbol for the beginning of a new chapter in my life. An exciting, fulfilling, and scary one.

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Everyone has that moment. The moment where they are faced with decision on which direction to go, what career to pursue, which Prince to marry, etc.

And that decision is usually a difficult one. It is the difference between comfort, and self-actualization.

Keeping my car would mean staying in Seattle for longer. It would mean more insurance payments, staying at my job for longer, postponing my trips.

But selling it also mean that when and if I came back to Seattle, I wouldn’t have that security to fall back on.

And what’s scary about that to me is that it is a material security.

 

I have loved ones in Seattle. I have a life here. I love it here.

If I came back to live in Seattle, I would have security in a multitude of ways.

But I don’t want my life to be about my attachment to things and places.

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I want to be attached to ideas. Dreams. Love. Goals. Morals.

Because those things follow your wherever you are.

Recently I have had a very hard time with letting things go. It’s mostly been out of fear of the unknown.

It has created this tension inside me. I know in my heart what I want to do, but I have things holding me back.

They are things that I have attached superficial meaning to, and I know that these meanings will not last forever.

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If I don’t let them go, they keep me from becoming the best version of myself- the person I want to be.

This not a call to “leave it all behind and travel the world”. There are definitely things worth holding onto.

I will miss my family wherever I go. I will still be a caring and compassionate person. I will still have a love for art, adventure, and activism.

But no more tears will be shed over a car. Or an apartment. Or the boxes of crap I am going to sell on Craigslist.

 

Because as cliché as it sounds, I know that that stuff means nothing in the grand scheme of things.

There will always be more STUFF. I want to invest in experiences.

What is that STUFF in your life that you need to let go of? Is it keeping you from being the person you want to be?

If so, you know what to do…

 

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12 thoughts on “Places, Things, and Letting Go

  1. Beautiful writing. It’s funny how sometimes the smaller moments are the ones that pull at the heart strings. When I was getting ready to move from Australia to the US last year, it wasn’t packing up my apartment or selling my stuff that made me anxious or sad. It was my last coffee in my favourite café, my last walk on my local beach.
    Here’s to moving forward xx

  2. A very honest post. I agree with that saying ‘travel is the only thing you buy that makes you richer” 🙂

    I have loved and learnt so much more travelling the world than I ever have in a classroom or in a shopping mall!

  3. You did the right thing! We all need less stuff. I wish you all the best on your travels around the world. In 20 years you will look back and wish you had sold it earlier. =)

  4. I’m in the process of selling first of all my condo (flat) and then pretty much everything I own. At this point in my life, I feel like all the stuff I own is more of a burden than anything else. Good on you for letting go – there will always be another car but your travels will give you so much more in return.

  5. This just gave me the chills! It’s so much truth and such an awesome read, this post. I applaud you for the realization of these thoughts, because I think deep down many of us are hold back by all their possessions, and know that their materialzed attachments are not of any real value. However, coming to this point and saying, no I don’t want this to chain me where I am, actually takes courage and determination. The reward for this decision will come for sure!

  6. I recently prepared myself for a long time travel and had to let go of many things. It is ridiculous how sometimes it is hard to even let go of the smallest things. But it is also great when nothing holds you back 🙂

  7. We can totally relate. When we moved abroad almost two years ago, we sold our car, bed, random items. And just burged all our stuff so we didnt have to pay for storage while we travelled. Its so freeing!

  8. Your words are so inspiring, and I believe you are totally right! I have the same dreams, to travel the world and to live my life to the fullest. After all, we only get one chance to do it right 🙂 I also have a hard time giving up on some material things, but I always try to see the good part in everything I do.

  9. It’s all about letting go. I agree. I came back from a 1 year away and the first thing I did when I came back is sold my house! It’s the best thing I ever did. Cheers.

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